ESCT. :(

Eeeevaannn... Ahhhh ~ !!!

:((

I... Hmmmm... Sienn ahhhh!

Missing you missning you...

How are you in mukah...?? :X

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Dream you last night. Sweet dao your cute face...... Zzzz... :'(

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:')

Ling ling ling ~

IMY

Nothing is going to stop until my way is in the End.

I've found which road i need to go in my future. :)

But i'm not able to stay long in kuching so soon, i guess?

Oh well ~ at least i out in this town. :X

Make me stress alots.

But kuching is the safely place! <3

I'm going to missed my friend, family and specially him. :((

Two month and i'm gone awwww. ;DD

Will help my parents earn money.

Mai worries this daughter. I am Strong Girl. xD

And i wish to lose feeling towards him yea ~ :\

Peace Angela Khung Xuan Wei!!!

You can do it. Add Oil! :P

Everything will get better very soon.

:))

I'm missing you. :\ E

What happen to us??

Actually we don't have to break or something. We just need to have a good talk without quarreling.

I'm hurt you leave me. :(

And i just want to let you know that ILY, </3

Did i hurt your feelings as much as you hurt me?? :(

What is your problem actually??

Is there a problem of why you treat me this way??

I am hurt enough already.

I don't desrve this kind of treated.

Did i ever treat you cold??

Did i ever treat you like how you treating me??

Did i ever ignored you sometimes?

Do you love me in the first place or not??

Or all you do is playing with me?

I am not finding any problem with you.

I am trying to solve our problem not to make thing unsolve or complicated!

What is it the things that you don't like? :'(

I just want us to be friend back. :(

I miss you, E. ♥

Not only you guys just dropping a tears. I'm one of you. :DD

Reading my own blog. My tears drop too.

HAHAHA. What a day. <'3

My friend and her mum cried while reading it.

She told me, i was like [[ :'(( ]].

I couldn't even say a thing.

So late already. I can't Sleep. :O

Well ~ miss her now.

Mui know what i want, right??

Please make it come true, hao??!

One of my wish come true lee.

Thank you so much! :'))

Let the others be tureeee to!!!

And one more wish.

I WISH TO BE THIN BACK. xD

I getting fatter.

Hm, did you see what he wrote ma?? You know what jie jie feel? :'(

You know, i know.

Shhhh. <'333

I wish not to have feeling towards him already.

He don't love me in the first plece.

Always play me, he don't even love me.

I know le... I was so stupid oh ~ :)

Give me way.

You know what.

Just give me way on my future. <3

Happy Brithday Alyssa, my sister. :))

- Happy Brithday To You -

[[ 14.4.1995 ]]

Bobooo ~

Today your birthday song bo?? :P

I keep my promise le. I upload my picchaaa.

Hope you liked it. ><

Plus oh, everything is fine today. Thank god last night i got pray for you and father! :'DD

When i can meet you again in my dream??

Jie miss you so much loo.

I remember when you was a baby, just a baby girl.

I remember your nose just so cute.

I touch your nose nuh. :DD

Big sis say you so pretty and cute.

I'll hope your eyes big like mum. If you is taiwan girl. I so jealous worr! xP

Then after one week like that, doc say you can't breathe.

Your heart block. </3

I remember  mummy cry and me just play around. :')

Why want leave me? :(

If you now still a life, maybe you and i so good neh.

I think la. Many boys chase you loo. xD <'3

And we can always hangout together.

I hope to have a sister age like us. 199x d.

But jie don't have. :'))

I wish you can be with me in life. Can shared secret together.

And can gossip about boys, want? xD

But i know, you always be by myside. I got problem i pray for you and tell you my feelings and secreted. <3

Shhh ~ ;D

And,

Really thankful cause you really helped me out. And thank to god. :)))

Be good up there, i know you sure got boyfriend. xD

Be good! :)

I will accecpt what unlucky day you gave me. Bring it out sis. xD

I am so ready to play your games.

I know you will play dao i cry. ==

Remember when jie in form 3? On your birthday my phone lost loo.

Then jie cryyyyy. The next day daddy buy phone for me.

Maybe you felt so sorry that's why you ask daddy buy. ><v

And now. I am so ready to play again. @@

But don't choose the day i go fishing haa.

Later i die there cause you play with me. -___-

Your birthday nice oh.

April 14. I love your birthday date. ><''

Can we exchange?? Mui decmember 31. I april 14.

Ok maa?? xPPP

And and ~ i want your name.

You take my named. :P

Sigh. So hope you can be here. <'3

Let me dream you again kkkk??

That three years ago, i remember i dream you.

You use white clothes is likeeee angel. :))

Have a one tree there and rock.

Its like in heaven. Peaceful place ~

You walk to me, mui touch my face. Err. >< <3

I know your talking to me. But i forget what you say. :((

Why i can see your face?? So blurrr. </3

Your hand so smooth, mine hard hard oh?? :DD

Btw, let me dream you again! Pleaseeeee.

I MISS YOU.

Everytime i listen to Mariah Carey - Bye Bye

I always think of you. My tears fall in my face.

That's song match you mui. <'3 :)))

I know you always beside me. Even i can't see you.

I know your playing a game, even i can play with you.

People want call me crazy.

I don't care. As long i know your the one who play with me and i always be there!

And yeahh ~ remember kor kor ahlun ma??

His younger daughter alicia.

Jie always see her justttt look like you.

Eyes big, fair, pretty, naughty! ;)

Jie love her so muc like you loo.

:)))

And my wish, make it come true!!!

You know what i want!

I'll will waittttttt. </3

<''33

Everyday is getting worse. Do the same things and it hurts.
I don't know if I should cry.
All I know is that I'm tryin.

What's the point of makin' plans.

You break all the ones we had
I don't know where we went wrong

Cause we used to be so strong

Where do I go from here

And I don't know how
To get out of this place that I'm inCan you be good to me??
Please...!

Where's my dream, where has it gone

</3

4 days more.

Someone brithday is coming!!! :D

And is someone special in my life for 17 yearsssss. ♥

Doing good ma there? I miss you so much eventhought i miss E more.

But you live in my heart for 17 years and nothing can change it.

Family miss you so much ar. :')

But i miss you more... </3

I know your so naughty, don't cincai out at night.

Listen to me. <'3

I promise!!!

Your birthday i take picture myself and upload in facebook or blog k??

For your birthday present. Muacksss.

If i don't, you can betray me cause i don't keep my promise. :)



Imma going to write our story in here and that's on your birthday. :))

I LOVE YOU. ♥

Injured myself. ♥

I don't know why i keep missing you E. I know we wont go back together. <'3 but my heart say not to let go. You hurt me so bad, why you need to hurted me?? I did what wrong? :(( your the one who break with me and say we be friend, that friend of your word mean nothing inside, right?? </3 nothing meaningful. Okays, you break with me, you know ILY for so long. The more you ingored me the more i get hurt, not to hate you is Hurt! When thing can go safely? :'( i shouldn't let you in my life for the 2nd time, i shouldn't! I don't know why you hate me, i done what wronnggg </3 every night keep thinking of you, you don't know i lying on my bed, tears just fall off. :') you don't know what it like's to get hurt, right?? You keep hurtin me. In one week can dream you three or four times. Made my day. BUT, when i wake up is just a Dream , you never know how much you hurt me. You wont know i wrote something in my blog all about you. You never know, that's why i write something here better then  facebook. :') You said we are friend, so Treat me as your friend. </3 hope things will get better. ♥

Why don't i smile with happiness??

Everywhere i go, money here and there.

Everyplace i go, remind me of something special and their are gone.

Why don't i laugh like things never change??

Why don't i have fun like other girl use to enjoy their life? :((

People say i'm so playful and likes to have fun everytime i hangout with friends.

Yaaaa, but you guys can see wayyy in me? :\

Why don't i have happiness?

What happiness mean actually??

When thing is right that's call happiness?

And things goes wrong that's call sadness?

Seeing my dad stress all time, i wish to help him.

People say i like boss at home sleep and eat.

But you really don't know who i am inside.

I am really hurtful person, you think that i'm useless cause i don't work now.

I don't work cause i need to think carefully which way i want to go.

And which way to move on and helped my family with money.

I know going college and study is the best way, i know!

But, i don't have confident in study anymore. And yes...

Maybe going college can change thinking.

Course which i like is business and baking cake.

Right. See, i take business course i know i wont study even a thing.

In heart sure say i will study if i go in colleged.

I know i will meet new friends, but when i get close surely...

I will play, wont focus on exam blaa. </3

And i think about my dad, money...!!!

Bake cake?? Hmm. :\ now a days people like taka niaaa ahhhh!

See tiok other shop got people go ma?? No lee.

Taka niaa. :(( if i open cake shop. Nobody go. Die die die!

Kill me! Business hard to do. :((

Kuching don't have work can do. This is my last chance to think and now i think this way is better.

Go sg study hair style. After three years or something.

I going to USA and work, in there. Everything is fashion. :)

I can earn money bring back here and help my family.

I know i'm far away from them, every month can send money lee. <3

People who don't know me well and look down on me.

You'll see, i wont give face on you someday! I wont!

Laugh at me, i don't care.

See me up to down, you step in hell as a fire can't save you.

:') :)

LIFE! * you are so complicated to me.

When things is messed up in my mind.

Things change so fast and i keep sayin '' this is end of the chapter ''

They're good and bad. Mostly, devil control the minded in our head.

Yes i did listen to the devil as much then angel.

Things changed, people change.

Our world do not seems like the ''old day''.

Family is really important, once they're gone.

Don't even think Friend will always be there in your way.

I'm envy cause i don't have perfect family. To those out there have the one i liked.

You are lucky. :))

I HOPE just someone would unterstand me more then everything.

My tears is the word can't say.

My eyes is the feeling in heart.

8april </3

When this thing happen, i'll remember when i was a little girl.

Sadness thing around me.

:) :) :)

WHEN CAN I HAVE A PEACEFUL LIFE IF THIS WAY IS UNFAIR TO ME?!

The first time i met you in 2008 until today. I'm loving you. :')) history about me and him. xD

2008

Form 3
The first time i met you is at school.
First month of 08.
I have a crush on you. xD
You look cute baa. ><
Plus naughty.
Your smiled attack my heart what. <3
On that time i don't even know you loo.
I don't even knew your name is what koh. ._.
And that time i call you J. L0L. :D
Nobody know. Only my closed friend know it. :))
Plus since we are stranger on that moment. Everytime we pass by each other.
You smile, i smile. ;P
I shy shy, know ma?? XD
Everytime you passed by my class, i was like ''HIM HIM! So CUTEEE weii! ''
I can go crazy just because of you. Wootsss.
My friend told me i in love with you.
I don't believe it cause i just know that i admired you only. ><
After march i guess. Exam time...
You ask your friend that i can speak chinese bo?
Your friend ask to fang fang.
I heard it, and i tell fang fang '' Just say Yess i know how ''. xD
And she told.
My face red like Apple. :X
Andddd not long you have my number.
I don't know where you take it. ._.
Midnight baru cari saya.
I tidur loo cannot reply. xD
Next day at school. Saw you come out from your car. You looks tired and sleepy. ==
And fang come and disturb you and say '' you got msg angela ha?? ''
You say '' where got ._. '' :P
TMD. I walk go my class cause of fang make me maluuuu. -.-
After a week later we get closer and closerrrrrr ~
After finish class you keep standing the door.
I can see you. xP ahaha.
You see me, i see you. ;)
But i don't know you look at who la. -.-
Atleast i like jiu hao. ><
Your birthday julai 10. That time your classmated sang for you.
I heard it and i was shock cause i didn't knew today is your birthday. :(
I ask you today is your brithday and i didn't say Hbday to you.
I shy. And you cubit my face i shyyyyyyyy dao. Whoo. xD
Beating so fast my hati. HAHAHAHA.
You always like that. <3
When i realize that i fall for you. I scare about it.
I told you we better be gang kor and mei.
You don't feel like accept it cause... I don't know. ._.
After we back from school. You told me the answer. Your face don't really want to accept loo.
My friend told me you don't want to accept cause you want to chase me.
And i said, lieeeee.
Cause that time you have gf le. :X
Impossible want chase me. L0L.
We keep chatting in phone.
Got one day you said you hate me this mei mei. =.=''
You love your gf. I know la.
Of course need to love her not me. :))
Why want say that to me lee. -.-
But got hurt me lo. xD
Then you said you next year change school. To tabuan! :((
TMD! Sad daoo moody. <'3
But you said we keep in touch to each other.
So sayang me! Yerr ~ ><
That time you break with your gf i guess.
Your gf behsong me loo. :\
I didn't do anything wrong.
I scared she find me. Dieee. ._.
Btw, she hate me. I hate her too! mlm!!! ==
We not friend. Always got that war if we meet each other in school. Eyes to eyes. @@''
But i so scare that time. I immature know how to play only. xD
I don't know what is That that bla bla bla bad things. - -
And when thingsss settle down.
Biggggg holiday comingggg. ;)
Day day chatting, like couple. :D
You said you lov... Lov... Loveeee me. xD
But that time i cannot accept you. :SS
I'm not ready. :)
We both love each other oh. xD <3


2009


Form 4
You not same school with me.
Everything seems... :((
I remember is feb 23 i accepct you. If i'm not mistaken. Forget. :D
You so happy you said. <3
For me was normal cause since 08 we chat like Hermmm. xD
Get used to it already. :))
Everything is <3 around. :D
Few months later, you changed. You treat me cold, didn't find me.
You remember?? I always use other number to try you ma?
I don't know what i did until you like that d. :((
I'll remember when i call you at night. All i do remember is you said '' why you keep calling me ha, haa??! '' <'3 you scold me. You'd say cibai. :') off the phone.
I don't really eat. Keep worried about you. What you do all the time. :\
When you said sorry i forgive you. A days later, night, we chat in phone.
You late reply. I got the feeling that you on your msn. I login my msn.
I saw you online! When you saw me online, you offline??! And you reply my msg.
I so mad cause you saw me online then you offline.
When i say why you off and we start to quarrel. You said '' Ahhh! We break laa! I so tired on love. I don't have girlfriend ''.
Imaaa so broken and i say sorry so much. You said too late. :')
I call and call you didn't answer. </3 you reply good night. That's the best part for me. <3
I love the feeling of hurting. This is the first time you hurt me so much. You are my first love.
The next day i go to school, i'm so emoooo. The one who always accompany me is Frank. ;)
I never hurt like this before. The real angela used to enjoy and have fun.
But this time, always use fake smileee. xD
I cut my hand. Really song loo. :)) Bleeding. I am crazy over you. <'3
After a month, I hear my friends say. You got gf. I told myself that this is a dream. You wont have gf cause you said you don't want to have.
I heard my friend said she's pretty. ;)
I don't believe that you've gf. I DON'T BELIEVE!!! :((
Day by day pass. I'd changed. I no joked. I no play. I'm not a fun girl anymore.
I don't talk so much, i sleep and cry. No eat. I getting tinner and tinner. @@
So the ET. :)
I'M EMO GIRL IN 2009. xD
Just sooo emo! ;))


2010

Form 5
Okayssss! Form 5 jiu got abit ok. ;D
But still, i'm broken. ;')
I do used fake smileeee.
When i start playing fb. I find out you ada fb. ;D
I keep thinking want add you ma. But at last i don't add.
And yeahhhh ~ i remember that time show lo come kuching you add me in fb. xD
I happy dao want die ady. I never knew you would add me. Ohohh. ;')
We chat like normal friend use to be. I can't believe it from my eye to see. >.>
And you ask me i still using my old number ma. I said '' No. You remember my old number nia ha? ''
You said Ya. I so happy cause you remeber my old number. You made my day. <3
I told my friend everything bla bla bla lalala ~
And they said '' this useless boy find you again?? Don't too over him. He will hurt you again. ''
Hmm. :\ i don't care. I love him enough!
Blahhhh!
Your status always saying that one girl. I don't know who.
I so envy. I asked you. You said you don't know. Bullshit. :X
And yeah ~ your bday you chase me two time i rejected. Sorry arr. Cause you memang mlm. - -
You lie me. You said you don't want have gf when you break with me.
You together with me then together with other girl. So shit you! :(
Just because of you i changed so much. :(( just youuu! :(
I can't accept you cause you treat me like shit before.
I remember few month kah if not wrong. :O
We quarrel, i said '' From now on. Don't you find me. I don't find you anymore Byee ''
You though it just a joke. I don't reply your msg and even chatbox.
You keep finding me three days saying sorry.
Your status always say '' you hate me you hate me again!!! '' so emo. :O
Still you chatbox me '' i really need you! Please reply me. I'm sorry. :( ''
I feel so pity to you, i reply. :\
Stupid me. I should not reply you!
But ILY that's why i replyyyy. When i did reply you still the same. We keep... Like... Quarrel or something that... Hmm. Don't know. ><
I remember that time chan lee sister birthday you go, right?
I hangout with my friends go eat steamboat. xD
You said you want to call me. You beg me.
You call. AWWWW. Long time no hear tiok your voice. So sweet. ;')) <3
I miss your voice. So cute weii. xP
Andddddd ronny birthday that time i am so emo in fb. I still remember i post ''Your words so sweet like piece of shit! :X ''
You comment ok. xD -.-
We chat inbox. You tell me how you feel about me. I tell you how i felt too.
I tak boleh lupa that night 23dec is ronny bday. ;) after 12.45 we get back together.
And yesss! Everything seems so perfect!!! <3 nothing goes wrong. Nothing!
:)
28dec we go watch moiveeee together. First time i met you in 2010.
Daoo so cuteeee. Blaaa. <3
ILY! <3 so shy. Tsk. We with Chien Kho.
I ask you come sugarbun, rmb ma?? xD
So cute. Looks smart. Face shy chinn. Ehehh. :)
We walk to MBO. Bla bla bla watch moive already.
You start to hug me when we watch mv. So smoothhhh. :P <3
You sleep in my arms. Your smell just so goooddd to me.
Finish the mv. We go kbox then you said you want go down and find macrus.
Marcus so shock that we together hangout. xD
And you guys don't know talking what. Hokkien. -.-
I just know is he say '' you know she wait you so long liao bo?? ''
You see me, i see you, marcus see me, i see him?? @.@
Blur blurrr. :D
You keep laughing none stop d. So funny. Whole spring i think can listen your voice. xD
You laugh until face so red. Cuteee. <3
When we want back lee. Marcus bring me back.
I don't really want go home so early. I want to see you more. :((
FML!


2011

This Year
Everything soo soo the fine! :DD
I am happy, you'll happy too, right.
Chinese New Year you came back kuching.
I rmb we went out together 6feb. :D
You drive no law one. :O
Whole day out with you. Hiaks. This is the 1st time whole day with you, know?? xD
And you said this is 1st time you hangout with gf so long.
I AM THE 1ST ONE and you said this is 1st time you drive the whole day! Blekkss. :P
Valentine day you buy flower from ling ling, maybe gua. ._.
Ronny bring it to my house. I so shock. xD
I though you wont buy anything for me. And i don't ask you to buy pun. :))
So sweet. ILY! :')
After a weeks. I don't know why you changed. :((
This time i unterstand why you less find me. Cause you working. Okays i know.
I wont blame you. :)
But when you start to have that ill problem in your head. Everything so different! :((
I keep worry about you. You ask me to use that way. I haven't get ready. Why you so in hurry??
What's wrong with you? :((
You post something weird in fb koh.
I know that one night. We talk carefully about this no quarrel or what.
Talk until you no reply i though you sleep ady. Nvm then. :)
Morning come upsss. Getting worseeeeeee. :(
You said to me '' if i am back in kuching don't find me out lee. ''
I ask you what happen you don't want to tell me.
Finally, you told me that your EX find you! And she say '' i hope you'll happy what you did to me ''
So hurt. Just because of that that's why you treating me cold?? :|
Day by day damn worse. I so worry about you. :(
I done what wrong?? Why cannot tell me??!
March 7 you leave me.
I hope you happy lee. :')
When you break with me, you said you hate me. You hate me!
I did wrong?? :'(
WHAT??
I miss you so badly.
I never knew this thing would happen so fast.
And with no reason you break with me.
You said you lost feeling towards me and you'd hate me. <'3
I am so emo. You hurt me 2nd time.
I so jealous the girl in your profile keep commenting in your status!!! :@
Nevermind for those whom i know d.
But strangers girl... mlm! :(




I hope you happy. March 16 you come back le right??
And 22 or what date you go back mukah koh.
And that day someone told me,
You like one girl, isit ma?? :((
I hope to know. Sigh. You play me 2nd time. And my heart is not a toy to play.
You like her, then chase her. :)
and We've a deal right, when you come back here we hangout. I want to give you back your lighter.
But you didn't... You such a LIAR! ;')
I remove you in my 1st acc. Cause i keep viewing your profile. <'3
Everytime i view i feel hurt.
I miss you so much. :((
And now,
I just hope everything will be fine with you soon.
I just... Just wish you don't have any girl you likeeee!!! :((
Don't because you like her then you leave me! </3333
I wish to give up on you when you leave me.
But i can't. I still LY. :(
I hate myself for loving you. :((
I wanted you back! ;((
E.S.C.T

I wish things will get better with you cause everyday i can't get you out off my minded. ;')

Please, don't treat me cold. You said we are friend.

So treat me as your friend. <'3

:((

Sometime, just sometimes.

I wish to give up, and i wish to hate you but...

I can't. :)

[[ I'm Movin' On ]]

[[ I'm Movin' On ]] 

[[ I'm Movin' On ]]

I hope you read this. :')

For those whom though my story is sound so lame and stupid.

I know have a bittt funny. But this is my way to talk. :P

Don't read it then. I don't force you to.

This is my story, not yours.

So

Back Off!

:))

Ignored me lee ba. ;') i'm sorry.

Should i ma?? Or should i not??

I know i don't have chance anymore.

You like someone else.

But i wanted you to know that,

I'd tried my best to made you happy.

I'd give everything to you.

Not enough le ma??

Isit i always give you stressed?? 

But i know, i didn't do anything wrong le. :((

Suddenly break for no reason.

I... WONT... WAIT...

ANYMORE. :)

You liked someone else.

I'll hope you happy.

Chase her if you can.

You happy, i'm happy too. :)

And i hope you happy what you did to me.

Should have known.

It's better Do not give you 2nd chance.

But i did.

Cause i thought god give us one chance to make it better then the 1st time we in a relationship.

But you break it. And i am happy. :')

Missing you when i closed my eyes.

You're too cute for me to look back.

Please, don't ignored my 2nd acc, hao ma??

I wont bother you. Really.

I just want you to approve it.

I'm sorry if i remove you in my 1st acc.

Want know why??

When you break with me.

You said, you hate me.

That's why. :(

And some reason.

I don't know why you hate me.

But whatever it is.

I'M SORRY. :)) <3