Saturday 10 September 2011

Don't tell me. :)

Did you ever notice how you can be sitting in the middle of doing something one day and all of a sudden you will remember the beginning? Like the first time we held hands or the first song you sang in the car? Maybe the first time we went to the movies? Maybe something smaller like a joke that we laughed at for what seemed like hours, or a day we spent talking, sometimes I’ll be sitting in the middle of doing something & I’ll remember and it makes me think, “Look how far we have come, look how happy we made each other from day one.” And that’s something so sentimental that it brings tears to my eyes. :')
I’m sorry for a lot of things, but most of all that I never got the chance to tell you that, I miss every moment I spent with you. And even though I keep fumbling for the right words, all I really wanted to say was thank you.......... *ILY*

Her! I on diet for dying to be her!




















Tsk tsk... I am so dying to be her! Next time I'm gonna take a photo just like her style lols...
Her hair...... I can't explain......... $^$%&$%*#%@(*)&__+$%@Q$32 .........

Thursday 8 September 2011

Family problem sucks in my life, so important to me! :(

I don't wish to see my parents keep quarreling. I am the big sister here. :(
And I've too much stressed in my way. My future of course too! I push them when they start the war. My f'king asthma come cause of shouting too loud. Sien :(
Life is so fking unfair..........
Dad said follow what he say.
Mum said Do not listen what my dad said.
Oh okay :\ both of you don't see the middle road as I go through now.
I see things many when you guys just fight for something...
I am so dying inside thinking everything will be alright :'(
Mum keep complaining I always out at night. But you don't see how stress I am If I'm not hangout with my friends.
Stay in my room?? :( I just crying out loud, locked myself in my room, pray to god.......
You guys don't see the way I wanted you to see me!
Yes I'd be worry about my future mum.......
I am worried next time who will give you guys a credit for the next step in life.
Dad? Look at his aged. I am worry it too. I may not saying what I want to say to you.
I don't shared my feeling's to my parents. But deep inside my heart. I really love my family.
But they just give negative thinking about me. I know I'm stupid as some of our blood rounding back to the old days like them.
I fight back to you '' mum '' it because you are sometime's over crazy the way you think, like seriously. </3
Don't you see dad having stressed? Did you see his face aren't that happy? I see it when he come's. And you '' mum '' sometimes need to take a looked at his face! Is he happy?!
You just know how to complain. I know daddy did something wrong until he break our family and I know how it feel's when a guy break a woman heart!
But you need to know! Your daughter having a stress's seeing you both talking like a '' war ''!
You both think I'd love it to watch huh?
And I know, a lot's of people look down on my family since this thing happened!
Hello :( did you guys see how hard my dad helping you people before?? Did he ask for a pay back helping? No right? But then, now my family have this bulls*** problem. Even we don't said we need help.
But If you guys have brain to think, you would helped. But you don't. Just leaved us and we solve our problem?? You are the same surname with us too. Why aren't you helping.....
Smile, good with us just so fake!
I am sorry for the rude words :')
Life just changed......... People change...
I don't know how to explained how I'd feel for this few month's! :(
I just don't know, how........
I don't know how to explain what I been through for all this month.
The only medicine is my friends who hangout with me, that's just give me a short smiled. :)))))))))




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Wednesday 7 September 2011

Seeing your previous status make me dying inside. :')

I don't wish to cry seeing your status. But I can't pull up my feeling. So here again, tears dropping. :)
You know... Some of your status just made me smile cause I remembered the day we were together. </3 hahahh............. Silly me, It's over remember, xuan wei. ;)))
To be honest once again,
I still miss you...
Lovin' you is hard to tell you, yeah ~
I just...... Don't............ :') but............... You.............. I, Don't, Care............ At...... All............ Hah... </3

I always think of you before I fall asleep. The words you said, the way you looked. The things we laughed about, the silent moments we shared.
And when I dream, I’ll dream of you; cause it’s about you,
It’s always about you.




I am strong enough now. :DDD
Just for a short whileeeeee.

Monday 22 August 2011

Even my life is unfair. But I got to move on. :)


Sometimes you have to cry for no reason to make up for all the times you wanted to cry and didn’t. But who can say what’s best? That’s why you need to grab whatever chance you have of happiness where you find it, and not worry about other people too much. My experience tells me that we get no more than two or three such chances in a life time, and if we let them go, we regret it for the rest of our lives.

















Sometimes, I just need someone to talk to. Someone who is not only willing to be there for me, but understands me & what I'd going through. Someone who is out down my guards & reveal my imperfections. Someone who will never judge me or sway away even from the mistakes I make. Someone who doesn’t need words to prove but you both know that the person will always be there. Someone who loves me, truly for who you are. One of the greatest gifts in life is having the chance to find someone like that in your life. :\

All of us have so much love to give, but in some way or another, we’re also afraid to love and to care, for fear that the other person does not care at all.


Tuesday 16 August 2011

Miss you a......... Lots :)


I try hardest to be good enough for everyone, who spend hours reading random quotes to find the right one, who listen to the same song dozens of times because the lyrics mean a lot, who deserve so much more than they get and are willing to fight for it and whose wish upon a shooting star was wasted on someone that will never care. Sometimes you just can’t tell anybody how you really feel. Not because you don’t know why, not because you don’t know your purpose, not because you can’t trust them; but because you can’t find the right words to make them understand.

I tried so hard. I tried harder than you could ever imagine and here I am now, still trying my best to forget everything, to forget every piece of you. The way you smell, the feel of your skin, the sound of your laughter. I can still feel you. I think I always will. :')










All you have to do is meet me half way. All you have to do is say yes.
Webothloveeachotheraren'twe??? :(
C.T

Sunday 14 August 2011

Don't forget about Us! :') CT

Did you forget
That I was even alive
Did you forget
Everything we ever had
Did you forget
Did you forget
About me

Did you regret
(Did you regret)
Ever standing by my side
Did you forget
(Did you forget)
What we were feeling inside
Now I'm left to forget
About us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it

So now I guess
This is where we have to stand
Did you regret
Ever holding my hand
Never again
Please don't forget
Don't forget

We had it all
We were just about to fall
Even more in love
Than we were before
I won't forget
I won't forget
About us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it

Somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it
At all

And at last
All the pictures have been burned
And all the past
Is just a lesson that we've learned
I won't forget
Please don't forget us

somewhere we went wrong
Our love is like a song
But you won't sing along
You've forgotten
About us

Don't forget