Why don't i smile with happiness??

Everywhere i go, money here and there.

Everyplace i go, remind me of something special and their are gone.

Why don't i laugh like things never change??

Why don't i have fun like other girl use to enjoy their life? :((

People say i'm so playful and likes to have fun everytime i hangout with friends.

Yaaaa, but you guys can see wayyy in me? :\

Why don't i have happiness?

What happiness mean actually??

When thing is right that's call happiness?

And things goes wrong that's call sadness?

Seeing my dad stress all time, i wish to help him.

People say i like boss at home sleep and eat.

But you really don't know who i am inside.

I am really hurtful person, you think that i'm useless cause i don't work now.

I don't work cause i need to think carefully which way i want to go.

And which way to move on and helped my family with money.

I know going college and study is the best way, i know!

But, i don't have confident in study anymore. And yes...

Maybe going college can change thinking.

Course which i like is business and baking cake.

Right. See, i take business course i know i wont study even a thing.

In heart sure say i will study if i go in colleged.

I know i will meet new friends, but when i get close surely...

I will play, wont focus on exam blaa. </3

And i think about my dad, money...!!!

Bake cake?? Hmm. :\ now a days people like taka niaaa ahhhh!

See tiok other shop got people go ma?? No lee.

Taka niaa. :(( if i open cake shop. Nobody go. Die die die!

Kill me! Business hard to do. :((

Kuching don't have work can do. This is my last chance to think and now i think this way is better.

Go sg study hair style. After three years or something.

I going to USA and work, in there. Everything is fashion. :)

I can earn money bring back here and help my family.

I know i'm far away from them, every month can send money lee. <3

People who don't know me well and look down on me.

You'll see, i wont give face on you someday! I wont!

Laugh at me, i don't care.

See me up to down, you step in hell as a fire can't save you.

:') :)